The Breakups

I Love You. Given the power of breakup, You broke our relationship off 4 or 5 or 6 times.  Sometimes this lasted a week or two. I came back to You each time more wounded.

First time was after taking holidays in Taiwan. Did not know the reason. Parents? Me? A test? One of Your letters reminded me that we once had broken up for only a couple of hours. I just stood there and took it. Felt I deserved the pain. I thought that was Love. I gained no joy in those sacrifices. Perhaps I pleased You that I didn’t immediately run away, but kept talking to You every day. When we got back together, I assumed that perhaps You or Your parents didn’t like me and You were scared to breakup cleanly. I really did Love You.

Second time was about the ring You wanted. You described as a gold ring without diamonds. You did not tell me it was a wedding ring. Only found out at the store. Bought a more expensive bracelet, the promise bracelet. You were disappointed. You broke up for a couple of weeks. Found out long afterwards that You had told Cathy that You were going get the ring.

I really didn’t know You had your mind so set on it. I couldn’t understand why didn’t You ask for an engagement ring first? What were You going tell Your parents? We discussed it afterwards and resolved to get rings once I graduated with a job. I now believe that I should have got You the ring. You wanted it as a symbol of assurance that I would be there for You. You wanted Love. Didn’t I Love You? I Love You today.